Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

 

To those families striked by tragedy and suffering in pain, to friends, and to lulu.

 

It's always easy to say, but when it comes down to reality, it's always hard to get out of the shadow.

 

Remember I told a friend not to worry, there are things in our lives that are just out of our control. But now I understand the frustration and the feeling of powerless he once felt is not easy to overcome.

 

Feeling alone, frustrated, and helpless, I guess it's not easy to try to grow up, and certainly will take awful lot of courage, faith, hope, or even tears for one to eventually get there. But grandpa and grandma did it, mom and dad did it, so I guess I'll be ok. It's just being in this so called 'waitting place' once told by Dr. Seuss is so puzzled and uncertain. Plus friends are all so far away, left me here with no one to talk to. Along with those endless depressing news on TV..oh mama miya, what a place to be.

 

But hopefully I've learnt something, not gonna mess it again this term. Just like friend has told me, friends don't need to be together to hold the friendship, guess I was too greedy and demanding and scared of losing them. And after all, I've got Janny, Sarah, Nur, Staph, Matt, Dan and Paul here. So inshallah I'll be ok. 

 

Fingers crossed.

 

P.S. need a new light bulb, 240v 60w. The old one busted, guess I talk too much.